Monday, April 5, 2010
Psalm 121: 7-8, "The Lord will keep you from all harm-he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." Hi! Welcome to my blog! This will be my first blog for my upcoming life adventure: I just accepted a volunteer placement at a YMCA in Lima, Peru for one year. Nervous, excited and anxious are all adjectives that describe how I feel right now. First things first...the testimony of my life. Growing up, my mom was an awesome example of what it means to be a godly selfless woman. Although not at all perfect, her love, self-sacrifice, forgiveness and sense of humor are all traits that I hope I have inherited from her. Growing up a Christian was awesome, however my life hasn't always been easy. When I was in college at Point Loma Nazarene University, I went through a very low point in my life. During my senior year of college I broke up with my boyfriend of two and a half years and tore my left Anterior Crucial Ligament. I felt so alone and so sad. I was also very insecure in myself and anxious. My heart was broken by the boy I thought I was going to marry. I tore my ACL at soccer training camp and I was out for the whole soccer season. I had played soccer since I was five years old and it was such a huge part of my life. Prior to this, I had a identity life crisis and it was a challenge for me to relate to people at Point Loma. I never felt so alone and isolated in my life. After graduating, God had used my friends (Marissa and Jamie Dungca)to invite me to a small group in Santee (shout out to Tuesday night Santee small group). Gradually, God began to work on my heart and transform me into the person I am right now.I continued to go to the small group and I experienced the love of Jesus through their lives. Then God gave me a mentor who taught me how to speak to people. God placed it on my heart to serve his church, so that is what I did. At small group, I would spend time with people, meet their needs and serve them. I wanted to do more because I loved them. I wanted to grow so much in my walk with the Lord and I prayed to him for a life like David and Joseph from the Old Testament. I told him that I didn't want to waste my youth but wanted to bless him and be blessed by Him. I wanted to build a foundation for my life so that I could become the godly woman that he had intended for me to become. I can't fully explain in words how grateful I'm to God for the life that he has given me. To know what it feels like to be so alone...that only God was there with me when I would cry myself to sleep...to know that He was there when there was no one in the world who could meet my needs..I'm eternally grateful..and for that I give him my life. Not only because he comforted me in what seemed like the most depressing point of my young life, but he protects, leads, guides and loves me. Isaiah 58:11, "The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."If you do not have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, I want to tell you that he loves you, he desires you, he created you, he has died for your sins. God's love towards us is so great and is so free. My prayer for each person in my life is that they could have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. My life is not perfect, in fact, this season has been a little stressful with school and work and other life issues. There is so much that I know God needs to work on me: my pride (a big issue I think everyone deals with), my selfishness, my sin...I will never be fully mature until I'm united with him in heaven. So in this life journey, he has brought me here, to go down to South America and use all of the education and opportunities that I have to help a community. This has been my dream for the past couple of years and it has finally become a reality. I'm going to miss all of the beautiful and loving people that God has placed in my life. I'm going to miss my family, church, classmates and abundant life here in San Diego, but I want to be challenged y quiero hablar espanol perfectamente! That is all for now, good night family and friends. I love you and pray for each of you often.Please keep me in your prayers.